After adding this song to my blog just now, I started thinking about some of the lyrics. It's from the movie Bucket List I believe, which is about two terminally ill men who escape from a cancer ward and head off on a road trip with a wish list of to-dos before they die:


Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much
Then never to say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say -John Mayer

I find this part in particular to be so true. Maybe I'm still on my plug about how we often, myself included, fail to tell people how we feel when none of us are promised tomorrow. How we hold onto grudges, how we are quick to judge others, how we are slow to forgive, how we can't just LET IT GO. How we fail to tell other people how we feel, because we are scared. Because it makes us nervous. I've always believed that at the end of the day, it's better to say too much than not to say what we need to say, whatever type relationship it may be.

I'm so thankful that I told Evan how I felt, what I needed to say. He never specifically addressed my comments when he wrote me emails back. He was always humble, so I think it made him uncomfortable when I told him he was a hero. But he read them, and he knew. He knew how much I loved him, he knew that he was my hero, and he knew how much I missed him because I told him every chance I got.

For that I am grateful.

But this hasn't always been the case in my relationships. So I'm resolving not to let another moment pass by without saying what I need to say.